i just want to not be sick and i want to be happy again.  I dont like how jealous i have become you are amazing and beautiful and everyone likes you and i feel like they could be way better for you than I. im back to the stage where one person is all i have.  You could break me so easiy and i dont want to be broken im so afraid of being hurt. I dont want you to leave.  I want you to tell me how imi good enough for you without me having to dish for it. I know we are perfect for each other but still i just feel not good enough.   I have super low self esteem lately and ive been sick for six days still counting. I wish i would have went to school today because i want to see my friends.  I wish my friends actually wanted to hang out with me i mean my close friends like J and M.  I need to stop being so sad ><