wow.

so i have been dating that guy i wasn’t sure about like i really like him and im going to stay with him and i bet we will be together for years atleast, i know that sounds idiotic and naive but i think it will be like that. but when i think about it is it REALLY what i want i mean it is. but then i keep thinking, i honestly do not think i can ever love him. not like i loved you, and you we were only together for a short period of time you werent the best but i loved you. and i know now i am living a lie and its how it has to be ive never had secrets but now i have tons, im not sure what to do but hey im happy. but am i THAT happy.

i have to post this stuff on the secret blog, because well its what i have to do.